Believe in me cuz I don't believe in anything, and I wanna be someone.....

"My mom has no hair."

I can feel how scared she is. But we were never like that. We never really let eachother know exactly what was going on inside. Most of the time, we could tell anyway. It's still sad. It's hard to see her and remember all the times in the past. How I was so sure she hated me, but that all changed one night in the carport. She came up and hugged me. She just knew I needed it. After all the times I had driven her crazy, she just let it go. I can't imagine how it feels. It's so close to me, but it's not my mom.

Life is weeding us out.

No chance to exercise my new ideas on life yet. I spent the day around other people, but, at the same time, completely alone. I worked, walked home in the heat, and slept for three hours. It felt like I had been out for days. That's how I sleep now. When I get the chance to lie down, my body goes into coma-mode because it knows there will be no other chance to get a good rest.

I watched some retro-music show today. Saw Bob Marley dancing with kids and singing 'Is This Love?' Then I watched the video for 'Red Red Wine', and turned it off halfway through.

Went into the yard with my sister to pick cherries. I climbed up onto the tree and tossed the good ones down at her head.
"Quit spitting the pits at me!"

This blog is nonsense. Just useless facts about my boring day. I want to go out in the heat. I ignored the urge last night; eventually succumbing to the attraction of three hours of sleep. I think I'll actually go tonight. Three hours sleep plus three hour nap equals six hours, which is a semi-full-night's sleep, which justifies going out tonight and getting none.

I heard Weezer AND Green Day at work today!


"A silence so heavy, broken hearts fall from throats."
-Funeral For A Friend