A one-way trip; whoever thought she'd miss the ins and outs of oxygen...

Last night, I started my activities when everyone else was just heading to bed. I got a ride to New Guy's and we walked to his friend's house where there were four very drunk guys. It was entertaining. Afterwards, we walked back to His place, smoked half a gram, and fooled around. Needless to say, I'm not very impressed with myself right now. We watched some Steven Segal movie, and I could just feel myself losing it; the drugs were definitely effective. I couldn't for the life of me figure out how long I had been awake. I kept looking at my watch, starting to add numbers, and falling asleep just before I found it out. I would start sentences and forget what I was saying half-way through. We ate some chips and salsa, (I have never seen a guy eat so much so fast), and I tried to make sense of what was happening around me. I eventually gave up and crawled to bed. We slept until almost two in the afternoon, and when I woke up, I just wanted to go home. He got out of bed and went to the couch to smoke the rest of the weed. I got my shit together and we didn't even kiss goodbye. I think it's about time that this stops. It has been fun, but I know that I can't learn anything from this guy. I'm just going to get myself into trouble. I don't think I want to deal with guys at all right now. I want to focus on work, school, my band, and moving out. I really want to put all my energy into this new band, which is something I've never really done. I want to read up on recording techniques and guitar theory, and really start educating myself musically. If I wasn't so realistic, I would probably take music in college and strive to become a 'rock star', but I think I'll leave that dream as my hobby right now. Anyway, I don't want to waste any more time or energy on worthless relationships. I can handle friends, friends are fine, but a relationship takes an enourmous amount of energy and dedication, both of which I am unwilling to give to the opposite sex.



"I have a psychic and she says I'm lonely, she says inside of me is turning out all wrong. So now I just sit here and think of meaningless things to say."
-Matthew Good Band