"I don't have much to offer a girl with hopes of college..."

I'm wasting time before I have to go to work right now. Oh man. Five hours from now I'll be back here and hopefully I'll be tired enough to go back to bed. I never realize how valuable sleep is until I have to get up in the morning and feel like shit. I never learn my lesson, though. I'm eating jelly beans. Breakfast of champions if I do say so myself. Um.. I have NO idea what flavour that was supposed to be... maybe my senses are dulled. Fuck. I don't want to start liking someone. I mean, falling in like is fun and cute and stupid, but I just don't want to go through it again. I'm so scared of getting disappointed and losing more hope for the male species. Hm, black licorice. I can't imagine myself dating anyone right now, but I would consider a realtionship with NG. I don't think he's quite ready for anything like that yet, either. Marshmallow. Mmm. Oh, I've been meaning to write about something. Is it just me, or are guys and girls swapping emotional roles? The last year or so, I have observed countless situations where girls act passive and uncaring, and when guys fall head over heels in 'I'm a stupid emotional idiot.' It just seems like girls make the decisions in relationships now. I'm seeing more and more guys get totally attached to girls only to get their hearts ripped out their asses. Peach. Tasty. However, this has been happening since the beginning of time. Guys have been whining about broken hearts for ages. It just seems more common today for guys to get fucked over. It seems like the male is the dependent, attached one in the relationship, while the girl is just along for the ride. Ok, I must got work. Pina Colada! Score!




"No you won't believe it, not until you see it, no, no you won't beleive it, not until I write it down."
-Hot Hot Heat