My out of style is coming back....

I'm sick. I don't know what the fuck I have, but I want it to go away. Right now I'm sitting on my ass, half-listening to the American Presidential Campaign on (ugh) CNN. I'm all stuffy; the aftermath of that killer sore throat. Last night I slept for almost 19 hours. Ever since the drunk incident, I've been vaguely nauseous every day. Yesterday at work, I almost had to run to the bathroom cuz I felt like I was going to faint. You know how you get all cold and sweaty, and then you can't hear anything? Yeah, it was freaky. I had to concentrate on what I was doing, so it wouldn't happen again. I'm also never hungry. I eat so that I don't die, but I have absolutely no appetite for it. I can't take anything, because I don't want to be drowsy at work. If this keeps up, I'm going to have to go to the dreaded doctor. I fucking hate the doctor. Anyway, on a lighter note, I went to New Guy's house the other day. I've decided not to use names, just for the other person's protection. I notice my sis does the same thing, so I guess I'll follow suit. Anyway, he has a dock. I want to jump off of it. We sat and watched tv all awkwardly, most likely because we both wanted to make out with eachother, haha. He's older than me, which is new. When I got home later that night, we talked more on msn, and I won't elaborate any more than that. I really want this. I thought I wasn't over Other Guy yet, but maybe I am. Maybe. It's his fault for not making a move when he could have. I'm not going to sit around and wait for him to sort his own shit out. I just hope that he doesn't try anything now. I don't know what I would do. It would be a test of character, that's for sure. As for Old Guy (haha, no he's not physically old), I haven't had the chance to tell him about New Guy. I'm sure he won't be impressed at all. He's still totally in love with me. Yeah, I have a guy in love with me that I don't want; a guy who I want but doesn't want me; and a guy who wants me but doesn't really want a relationship. That's fine, because I don't particularily want a relationship right now either. I just want attention. And company. I'm really interested to see where things go with NG. Well, I know exactly where some things are going to go, but I wonder what, if anything, will develop out of it. If the other two object, then I have speeches prepared for both of them. I'll feel sympathy for OldG, but he went ahead and started dating someone else right after we broke up. I have every right to pursue whatever I want. As for OtherG, if he does object, (I can't decide whether I want him to or not), then I will feel no sympathy. He had his chance. I fell for him and got nothing out of it. Maybe we're better as friends anyway.
Well, onto other things. Tonight I work at Wendy's for the first time. Friday is going to be a bitch-and-a-half. I work 6-10 Sears, 11-2 Wendy's, home to sleep, and then I have to be at the college at 5:45 to help with the show. And that's going to go late. I'm really fucking myself up. I'm not complaining though! This is not complaining! I just hope my body doesn't betray me. Thank god I have the weekend off. Sweet sweet weekend. I will most likely be spending the majority of it with NG.

Aaaaaaand life goes on..



"Put down your hollow tips and kiss your lover's lips and know that fate is what we make of it."
-Incubus
(expect lots of Incubus quotes, I just got the new cd, haha)