random and pointless...

... this is one of those entries where you speak in lyrics and hope that no one really knows what you're thinking about. it never works though. feel free to skip right to the next entry, it's in plain english.


my head is positively swimming. no one has ever made me feel this wanted. what is it about me? are you seeing something that i can't? is my reflection in the mirror distorted for my own eyes? it's this waiting that drives me crazy. it's wanting to see you in person and be speechless and just take you without caring. i haven't done something without caring in a long time. i feel like i have control, but you're definitely tugging at the other end. it feels so nice to have someone pulling back. i'm sick of giving all i have just to have the other person fall on their knees in front of me. i need a little structure too. this is so unlike me. everything you say makes me shake. i can't see straight, i can't think of anything else. i've never been this captivated. this is new. and nice.