Cold grass beneath me and His body clouding the sky. Everything told me 'leave'. Every cell in my body wanted to be gone from that place. Gone away from Him. My head begged, "I wish you were here! I wish you were here!" You were so close. You could have walked up to me and pulled me off the ground and I could have melted into you like a lost child. I felt trapped. I felt my eyes squeezing into slits; trying to force out tears. They didn't come. My eyes remained dry. My body tense like slingshot rubber. You said you'd always be there, but try as I might, I couldn't make you read my mind. I had to be my own knight-shining-armour. I had to ride away on my own horse.