"After four beers I'm gay."

I love you Cara. That was the best quote ever. Correction... IS the best quote ever. So anyway. My computer is still broken. I'm at Trevor's waiting for band practice to start. I'm bored. And hungry. And.....worried. About Tracey. She won't talk to me. Every time she looks at me it's like she wants to hurt me. I don't understand what happened. I wish she would talk to me but I never see her anymore....... She's sunken into something and I wish I could help her out, but I want to leave her to figure it out on her own. She seems to think that everyone is against her and that everyone is trying to make her feel unwanted. No one would purposefully want to hurt her and I don't know where she's getting the impression that no one cares about her. I care more than she knows. I'm so scared that I'm going to complete lose her to whatever she's fallen into. We used to be so close and now... I don't know what to think. I've finally figured myself out after being kinda depressed for awhile, and I feel so hopeless when it comes to helping her. Maybe I'll talk to her, but I don't think she's ready for help. I think she's still in that mood where she won't take my advice. I don't know what she wants from life or what she expects from other people but I wish I could tell her that you can't rely on anyone else to make you happy. You have to make yourself happy, and then everything else that happens is just icing on the cake. I'm not going to tell her what she needs to do. It's up to her to decide. I just hope she figures it out before she gives up.





"In my room it's forced, it has to be in some car across the street."
-Big Wreck