You bring me closer to God....

Running on an hour's sleep, my mind is stuck in fuzzy thought, a lump of illogical swayings and sighs, my eyes dip towards the floor. My body feels odd, metallic, hollow; the hangover creeping slowly up my spine and clouding the view. Last night was a beginning, last night was absolute magic.

I arrived alone, and introduced myself to Ingrid and Roman. Their house had the swollen ambience of long-lost parties and endless good times. The room slowly filled as Trent, Spencer, Steph, and Tracey mulled about the kitchen making drinks and taco's. A fourty of gin was drained, courted by a train of cigarettes, a few joints, and a little pink pill. I felt the room heat up, the music pulsed, we danced, we laughed, we drank. Phil came later and the two of us became instant friends. After much debating, a trip to the gay bar was planned. Phil and I left first, and I skipped down the pavement in the icy cold with the E caressing my veins and flushing my face. When we reached the bar, he pulled me inside.
"Come on, darling, let's go have some fun!"
Me and my big brother floated out over the dance floor. The techno music was almost too much to handle. The rest of the gang showed up shortly after, and I didn't stop dancing until the club closed and everyone was kicked out.

That's the backbone of my night. The rest of it comes in blurred movie clips and short-lived snapshots....
Slovac music, the boy who got too close, the young ones and all the dope, watching the moon ("No one can ever harness and put a price on what I just felt."), spilling drinks, teeth chipped on beer bottles, lowlights and smoke, the girl with the bleach blonde hair..... It was the best night of my entire life. I have never felt that happy and comfortable around people I just met.

When it all came to a sickening halt, my sister and I sang Tegan and Sara together until we drifted off. Phil came in with a cute boy, and returned later. He crowded into the twin bed, the three of us in a cozy row, and he read us poetry until I couldn't hear his soft voice anymore.

I fell in love with a night.








"Think of one moment you can recall, the happiest moment of your life, it's gone..."
-Moneen